Ive been eating in an out of control type of way at night, before I sleep. If i can get a grip on that all would be well.
I am guessing its because of 2 reasons:
1. I usually use til i pass out and fall asleep and thats no longer a possibility.
2. I naturally have significant difficulty sleeping
And so vegan chocolate bars and gluten free vegan cookies abound. Could be worse i suppose.
Methadone has been working swimmingly. No issues, no cravings, no second thoughts. Noone believes me, but i really did continue using to avoid the withdrawal during sensitive times. The high was an added on perk, though.
Im surprised at how able I am to get up in the morning to get my ass to the clinic for dosing. But I was able to get my ass up every day between 5:30 and 6am to get ready to teach. I guess it really does matter how important something is to you.
Weighed myself this morning. Ive ballooned up to 160. Up from 145 a few months ago. I am going to start calorie counting and constructively working out, ie getting my heart rate up before meals, trying to work out 1/2 of my daily calorie count. Im also going to stop snacking as I know thats whats killing me.
My goal is 135 by August. This should be doable.
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